...And I do cry. Every night. At 2 AM. No one knows

" I'm a GHOST of a girl that I want to be most...  I'm the SHELL of a girl that I used to know well "

Video: Recorded Sept 28 2011

lol... Rap fail :p




But who cares, I miss the moment :')


Don't judge, there was honestly nothing to do that morning

A FRIEND INDEED

There's always that one person you are sure would stick with you no matter what

There's one other person you are unsure of but might be there

and other person that'll never be there

Don't stay wondering or thinking who it would be, just look around you when it's time.

I've learned my lesson.

Prince charming

Just when I got my prince charming? i'm not loosing him over my stupid mistakes.


I need to tell him about me, but i'm scared he'll leave cos he can't deal with the drama


God help me, if this would be the last chance I get


I'm not letting go, at least now I have something to fight for apart from me

Confused lad

It's plain old me but with much more problems than last time *sigh*.  Could my life get any worse? You can bet it can. I don't know if you know, but i'm currently in the university of ottawa studying computer science. Stuff isn't working out so good, so i've decided to change my program.

Throughout my life, since ambitions and future dreams were ever talked about; i've always been confused about what I want to do. Truth is I am sort of an introvert, and it isn't helping matters at all. Fine!! I didn't do so well in my courses last semester, Reason why i want to quit the program and do something I can do better in. The courses were so very confusing and wasn't meant for me. At least that's my own explanation for not doing so well as I used to. My mum and my uncle have a different version on things "You do not interact well with people", "You lack social skills", "Bla Bla Bla".

Fuck it!! I know i have a problem, so why rub it in my face and tell me every single time. Plus that is not the Freaking reason I didn't do so well. How about the times were I Aced my courses? Was a Social maniac? Was I up in everyones' business? You complained, I tried my best to change and then it made me a fucking introvert. I've learnt to stay on my own, and now you crucify me for it?

Then that aside, they start talking about how my beauty, my height, how many clothes I have.... does not make me complete. When the fuck did I start having so much clothes, and how is it my fault that I have this height and the beauty(That only few can see). I never parade around and show off like see what i've got or anything. So why the fuck am I being disturbed by your noise? Let's not start about comparing me to my friends which I know the bad and good sides. I won't expose the bad sides, just let you find out for yourselves if you ever do.

Anyway, forgetting about the above rave and rant and pointing of finger's, point is I don't know what to be now?

 I'm confused and I need someone to blame right now. I just feel like running away somewhere, but I don't now if i'll survive.

I'm just an angry person right now. I hope all gets' right with me. Wish me luck

Family Summer

Hey
I haven't been on here in like a million years :p. Thing is i've been busy; not lazy lying busy, or school work busy, or ignoring you busy. It's my mum busy.
So my mum came from Nigeria this summer, and it has been 'hella hectic. She wants me to move in with brother and of-course my uncle.
It's been fun also actually (rarely :P. I'm just saying that so i'm not entirely sad). The early morning rising by 7a.m , the early morning devotions, cleaning up the house every single day like it were a weekend, just general annoying Nigerian mum things.
I know i'll survive tho. ya and i'm sorta moving today so wish me luck.
About my friends, I haven't found any new friends yet. still working on it.
My crush - It's faded now or something like that.
My life - A disaster right now. Lord help me.

Well Buh bye people *Kisses*