It's plain old me but with much more problems than last time *sigh*. Could my life get any worse? You can bet it can. I don't know if you know, but i'm currently in the university of ottawa studying computer science. Stuff isn't working out so good, so i've decided to change my program.
Throughout my life, since ambitions and future dreams were ever talked about; i've always been confused about what I want to do. Truth is I am sort of an introvert, and it isn't helping matters at all. Fine!! I didn't do so well in my courses last semester, Reason why i want to quit the program and do something I can do better in. The courses were so very confusing and wasn't meant for me. At least that's my own explanation for not doing so well as I used to. My mum and my uncle have a different version on things "You do not interact well with people", "You lack social skills", "Bla Bla Bla".
Fuck it!! I know i have a problem, so why rub it in my face and tell me every single time. Plus that is not the Freaking reason I didn't do so well. How about the times were I Aced my courses? Was a Social maniac? Was I up in everyones' business? You complained, I tried my best to change and then it made me a fucking introvert. I've learnt to stay on my own, and now you crucify me for it?
Then that aside, they start talking about how my beauty, my height, how many clothes I have.... does not make me complete. When the fuck did I start having so much clothes, and how is it my fault that I have this height and the beauty(That only few can see). I never parade around and show off like see what i've got or anything. So why the fuck am I being disturbed by your noise? Let's not start about comparing me to my friends which I know the bad and good sides. I won't expose the bad sides, just let you find out for yourselves if you ever do.
Anyway, forgetting about the above rave and rant and pointing of finger's, point is I don't know what to be now?
I'm confused and I need someone to blame right now. I just feel like running away somewhere, but I don't now if i'll survive.
I'm just an angry person right now. I hope all gets' right with me. Wish me luck
Monday, 15 August 2011
Monday, 1 August 2011
Family Summer
Hey
I haven't been on here in like a million years :p. Thing is i've been busy; not lazy lying busy, or school work busy, or ignoring you busy. It's my mum busy.
So my mum came from Nigeria this summer, and it has been 'hella hectic. She wants me to move in with brother and of-course my uncle.
It's been fun also actually (rarely :P. I'm just saying that so i'm not entirely sad). The early morning rising by 7a.m , the early morning devotions, cleaning up the house every single day like it were a weekend, just general annoying Nigerian mum things.
I know i'll survive tho. ya and i'm sorta moving today so wish me luck.
About my friends, I haven't found any new friends yet. still working on it.
My crush - It's faded now or something like that.
My life - A disaster right now. Lord help me.
Well Buh bye people *Kisses*
I haven't been on here in like a million years :p. Thing is i've been busy; not lazy lying busy, or school work busy, or ignoring you busy. It's my mum busy.
So my mum came from Nigeria this summer, and it has been 'hella hectic. She wants me to move in with brother and of-course my uncle.
It's been fun also actually (rarely :P. I'm just saying that so i'm not entirely sad). The early morning rising by 7a.m , the early morning devotions, cleaning up the house every single day like it were a weekend, just general annoying Nigerian mum things.
I know i'll survive tho. ya and i'm sorta moving today so wish me luck.
About my friends, I haven't found any new friends yet. still working on it.
My crush - It's faded now or something like that.
My life - A disaster right now. Lord help me.
Well Buh bye people *Kisses*
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
Dented days like today
Today started out good. my Friends boyfriend graduated today from carleton (Applause :)).
The graduation was fun, We had a swell time and bla bla bla... it was good alright until I got back home.
I was rushing to get to school for a 3 hour class which I was already 30 minutes late for, and I was still going to take a bus ride to school for about 30 minutes. After consoling myself on how I was going to enter my class an hour late, I decided to look for my lecture room which turned out to be missing from my horizon.
I searched and I finally found my beloved lecture room, only to turn the handle and it refused to let me in. Apparently, either the class was canceled or my class mates had come earlier, and since it was to be the first day of class maybe the lecturer had just said few words and let them go.
I however took the blame for coming late and slowly walked back to where I had come from, home. At home all things were ok until I stumbled upon my supposed to be friend who I was not and I'm not in good terms with now. How awkward, with the rotating of heads and side eyes... oh well moving on, Then came the evening when things even became worse. Just when I thought life would be better, I walk into my friend kaycee's room and I find her crying.. Although I am not a person of tears and consolation, I tried my best to plead with her to tell me what was wrong.
As girls would always be girls, she said nothing was wrong even as I could see clearly that something had gone wrong. Oh weel impatient me got tired of pleading and just sat by her, going about my personal business. At least I wont be blamed, after all I tried helping.
After several minutes, she goes to have a bath and suddenly left the house. She didn't tell me where she was going to, but I suspect it is to give her boyfriend a cake she had baked earlier. I wasn't expecting her to be back, so i was going to leave her house after the writing of this post, but she just walked in and I was actually wrong, she was coming back.
I hope she would tell me what was wrong though. If she doesn't i'll go home to my couch and have a rest if she does, I might still repeat the above :P. Wish me luck and I shall see you on the other side Ciao *Kisses*
The graduation was fun, We had a swell time and bla bla bla... it was good alright until I got back home.
I was rushing to get to school for a 3 hour class which I was already 30 minutes late for, and I was still going to take a bus ride to school for about 30 minutes. After consoling myself on how I was going to enter my class an hour late, I decided to look for my lecture room which turned out to be missing from my horizon.
I searched and I finally found my beloved lecture room, only to turn the handle and it refused to let me in. Apparently, either the class was canceled or my class mates had come earlier, and since it was to be the first day of class maybe the lecturer had just said few words and let them go.
I however took the blame for coming late and slowly walked back to where I had come from, home. At home all things were ok until I stumbled upon my supposed to be friend who I was not and I'm not in good terms with now. How awkward, with the rotating of heads and side eyes... oh well moving on, Then came the evening when things even became worse. Just when I thought life would be better, I walk into my friend kaycee's room and I find her crying.. Although I am not a person of tears and consolation, I tried my best to plead with her to tell me what was wrong.
As girls would always be girls, she said nothing was wrong even as I could see clearly that something had gone wrong. Oh weel impatient me got tired of pleading and just sat by her, going about my personal business. At least I wont be blamed, after all I tried helping.
After several minutes, she goes to have a bath and suddenly left the house. She didn't tell me where she was going to, but I suspect it is to give her boyfriend a cake she had baked earlier. I wasn't expecting her to be back, so i was going to leave her house after the writing of this post, but she just walked in and I was actually wrong, she was coming back.
I hope she would tell me what was wrong though. If she doesn't i'll go home to my couch and have a rest if she does, I might still repeat the above :P. Wish me luck and I shall see you on the other side Ciao *Kisses*
Saturday, 4 June 2011
My Crush Xx DayDreaming xX
Have you ever been thinking about someone and all the sudden you catch yourself with a huge smile on your face?!?
I love that feeling
I was totally over it. I told myself it was a stupid crush, over and done with it. And then he looked at me...
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
Few words
I have a few things i’d like to say to you
but it’s better i don’t say
believe me i’ve tried a lot
and there it is again
i’ll try again later, bet me i will
there are few things i’ve noticed
you are not who you say you are
or maybe you just think you are
and try to be
doesn’t work for me
i’ll want you to tell me a few things
not your opinions
they don’t matter right now
are you for real, or is it just me?
oh well f**k you.. really
Is it best I stop trying?
No not you, I’m not asking you now
Lord bless my soul if I have to deal with this
I’ll be on the other side in a few
If you'd be coming over, I’ll see you
but it’s better i don’t say
believe me i’ve tried a lot
and there it is again
i’ll try again later, bet me i will
there are few things i’ve noticed
you are not who you say you are
or maybe you just think you are
and try to be
doesn’t work for me
i’ll want you to tell me a few things
not your opinions
they don’t matter right now
are you for real, or is it just me?
oh well f**k you.. really
Is it best I stop trying?
No not you, I’m not asking you now
Lord bless my soul if I have to deal with this
I’ll be on the other side in a few
If you'd be coming over, I’ll see you
Thursday, 26 May 2011
:(:
Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand...
Friday, 13 May 2011
Friend or Foe??
Just lamenting about my relationship with friends and keeping friends in general..
Make sure to Watch the video below
Make sure to Watch the video below
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Hello <> Hi
Hey people, this is an intro to my life story and blog :P
The name is ....... long for the internet, I know. For publicity sake, i'll just stick to chidy.
I am proudly Nigerian. Made in the 90's ;)
This would be my life story, dating June 3rd 2011 approximately 23:00 (11 pm).
I'm not a socialite, but i'll try my best. Although I think I'll actually interact better on here. To spare you boredom.. i'll leave now and say Adieus Amigos *Kisses*
The name is ....... long for the internet, I know. For publicity sake, i'll just stick to chidy.
I am proudly Nigerian. Made in the 90's ;)
This would be my life story, dating June 3rd 2011 approximately 23:00 (11 pm).
I'm not a socialite, but i'll try my best. Although I think I'll actually interact better on here. To spare you boredom.. i'll leave now and say Adieus Amigos *Kisses*
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